144 part 2.

Ok, so I'm not surprised that I didn't lose weight, but I am that I maintained! With thanksgiving and people constantly over drinking beer and going out to eat I'm shocked I didn't gain like 5 pounds. Good news is that I'm still at 144!
On to other news... this Friday I'm going into town with Bailey to get our hair done :) we are going to miss Branden Elde, who I adore! I'm getting my hair dyed and bangs, and Bailey is getting her hair dyed and cut short. I've also decided to start tanning, I've decided this because my acne is going nuts again and when I'm tan it loves me SO no more pasty sickly Caitlin.
More thoughts... I'm buying a new sewing machine because mine hates me and is evil and I want to sew!!! I've been pinteresting like crazy and am super motivated to sew. I was in the middle of a dress when my shitty old machine died, so I'm hoping to buy it pronto.
Anywhoooooo, I'm totally done xmas shopping and it's not even December! WOOT WOOT

144.

It's been one week and a day since I started working out every day, I have lost one pound. I'm happy, though not 100% sure that that didn't happen naturally considering my body likes to gain and lose weight whenever it wants for no particular reason. Today I am actually counting down the days until I can live in Wasilla again. I don't really like the city but because it's a city it's so nice to have things around. I can't wait for fred meyers to be 20 minutes away, I can't wait for Body Renew to be 20 minutes away, I can't wait to go to class in person (lies, I can totally wait). My only major concern is that Dina, who is now 16, won't handle it well. She will go from a two story, 3 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom tiny apartment. I know that Bulliwyf won't mind where he's living as long as it's with both Damon and I. Blargh.
Other thoughts... I'm not totally convinced school is for me. At least, not yet. I'm been rolling around ideas of working instead of school, or possible saving to go to hair school? GUH! Who knows!!!
Good thoughts! My friend Noelle is getting married December 17th (on my best's friends birthday), and my best friend Kristjana is getting married sometime this coming June! I'm totally wedding obsessed and wanted to plan Noelle's wedding but I think she got overwhelmed and wants a minimalists wedding. Kristjana on the other hand even told me she's glad I'm wedding crazed and wants me to help plan! I think that this Christmas break will be nothing but wedding planning. I've already told her that we have to at least go wedding dress looking while she's in AK.
Speaking of weddings, I totally found the ring I want for both my engagement and wedding band (I don't need two, just one sparkly cool one). It's on sale right now and I was trying to convince Damon that he should totally buy it now in case it goes out of style or something by the time he wants to ask me, hopefully (and I'm counting on) in 3 years. Man, 3 years sounds like a long ass time... We have just been together now for 3 years, I'm not sure I want to wait another 3. Maybe 2 years, and then we can wait a while until we get married. Hmmm, anyways, I want to be married by or at 25 and that's in 4 years so I better not be waiting!

Age: 20

Weight: 144

Height: 5'6"

BMI: 22.0

RING I NEED!!!!!!!! OMG I LOVE IT!!!!!!

145.

Ok, so last Saturday I started really pushing myself to get into better shape. Since last winter I've lost weight, but am now maintaining a weight of 145. What's odd and actually bothersome is that senior year, 3 years ago, I was in MUCH better shape weighing in at 155. I've learned to get over that and I've realized that though I was skinnier and more toned, my diet was absolute SHIT! I mean, I would drink about 4-5 sodas a day and for food I would eat 1 potato and an apple. These days I eat 3 balanced meals a day and only ever drink sodas when I go out to eat, and even then I can't finish them. Basically what I'm saying is that I'm slowly learning to appreciate this adult body of mine. I still have a lot of things I'd like to tone up but over all I'm a happy camper!
Anyways, I've decided to start posting pictures of myself so that I can, and if someone's reading this, you can see my progress and perhaps cheer me on.
OH! GREAT NEWS! My bestest friend in the world just got engaged :) Her wedding will most likely be in June of 2012 and one of her main colors will be purple. I'M STOKED!!!

Age: 20

Height: 5'6"

Weight: 145

BMI: 22.24

Awhadup.

It's been quite some time since I've been on here... About 3 months. The last time I wrote on here all I did was talk about how I was getting a puppy. Well I got him and he's awesome!!! I love him with all my heart :) the other important news is that I'm going to school! I actually really dislike it at the moment but I'm going to give it another semester. I'm only taking 4 classes and I'm getting C's in everything but the one class I enjoy, history! I love my history class and professor and I plan on taking another class taught by him in spring (philosophy 101). I feel totally worthless at the moment and sometimes miss the simplicity of working and coming home to relax. Now I don't work and just feel lazy. I am working out at home, doing MMA on Monday's, volleyball on Tuesday's and Thursday's, and basketball on Wednesday's though so that gets me out of the house now and then. It's really frustrating having Damon at school 3 days a week though, I get in a routine while hes away and then I have to change it again when he comes home. Oh well, Ill survive!
Anyways, that's what I'm doing.

Puppy!

I haven't written anything on this blog for quite a while, which is fine I'm sure... considering I don't think anyone reads it! Anywhoooooo, I've been puppy searching for quite a while now and I've found and fallen in love with one. He is a Vizsla, he will be shipped to Alaska from the lower 48, and will be named Buliwyf (bull-vie). The name might sound a little ridiculous but it's the only name Damon and I could agree on. In all honesty, it's a pretty bad ass name in my opinion. If you have ever read the book Eaters of the Dead or watched the movie The 13th Warrior the name will sound familiar. Our little vizsla is being named after a bad ass from the book.
Damon and I have been researching dogs and haven't been able to agree on one until now. I wanted a lab, he wanted a german wirehaired pointer, I wanted a swiss mountain dog, he wanted a bernese, I wanted a soft-coated wheater terrier, he wanted an airedale terrier... so on and so forth. I had originally loved this dog and wanted one but Damon wasn't convinced. After disagreement upon disagreement I found a video on animal planet about vizsla's, it was only about 4 minutes so Damon agreed to watch it. BAM! He fell in love! It's a mix between labradors, german shorthaired pointers and weimaraners. It's a loveable family dog and a great athlete, exactly what Damon and I had been looking for.
He's already found a soft spot in my heart and I've only ever seen pictures of him. I am beyond excited and ready for this dog to be home in my arms.

Life Plans.

I've recently realized that making plans is silly. Nothing ever turns out how you'd like it to. I'm not saying that this new plan is necessarily a bad one, just that it's thrown me a curve ball. So now, instead of me moving to Wasilla this fall and going to school in person it looks like I'll be staying in Talkeetna playing grown up.
Instead of my mom simply waiting a year to move so that the house sells, she is determined to leave. Because the house needs a lot of work done to it there needs to be someone living there. I'm also my moms power of attorney so I'm supposed to be overseeing their work at the house. Needless to say I'm not too pleased to be living in Talkeetna alone but I think that it might be good for me. I've never been close to being alone in my entire life. Even when my mom would go on vacation I'd have people over every day so that I wasn't alone.
Anyways, my plan for this winter is as follows...
Take 5 classes online, coach xcountry and hopefully volleyball, try and find a job, and keep myself entertained in the mean while. I'll have my cat with me, so that's someone to keep me company. The only problem is that during the winter especially I can go into a downward spiral of depression. I'm considering a dog, no joke. The only thing is that my cat may not like that choice and she'll be 17 this fall and I don't want a dog to give her a little cat heart attack. Damon should be home for at least 3 or 4 nights a week so that'll be nice. Also, Brenna, Cooper, Noelle, and Jenny will be here this winter. I feel like this might be a good thing for me, but honestly I'm just scared shitless. It's going to be a huge adjustment with mom no longer being a drive away, and then with Damon gone half of the week I'm not sure how this will work out.
I'm also worried that Damon and I may grow apart if he's in Wasilla for the fall, then Anchorage in the spring. Blargh, this whole thing is rather frustrating. I'm not very good with extreme change!! I love him with all of my heart and I know he loves me back so maybe this'll be good? I've heard that distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it's already plenty fond right meow.
Hmmmmmm lots to think about.

On a different note I've been running and doing MMA so I've been kicking my butt into shape! Soon I'll get my tires inflated again and do some biking!

Summer Goal.

A new goal of mine is to be able to do the splits. I want to get more flexible in general and I figured if I set a goal for myself with a certain stretch I should be able to do it! Along with stretching everyday for 20-30 minutes I also want to add an ab workout. I believe that you can tell if someone is in shape by simply looking at their core muscles. Right now, I'm lacking in those muscles and what to do something about it. It's been a real bummer with my stupid ankle lately but I've still managed to get my butt off the couch and do some abs and today I'll be adding stretches!

Size 6.

As the snow starts to melt, and elementary students ride their bikes around east Talkeetna attempting wheelies I pulled up a pair of my size 6's. WOOHOOO! I know that numbers don't matter, but it's nice to drop a pant size. My new problem is, size 8 jeans don't fit me anymore! I recently purchased another pair of 6's but alas, they were the same exact pair as my other jeans! OOPS! Another thing, this summer I want to wear more dresses! Maybe I can also buy a pair of wedges to complete the transformation into old Caitlin's body. One thing that I love about being older and my body changing is that I've learned to love myself. My thighs are a little big, but so what! They are strong and can kick your ass if need be. I have no boobs, but I can wear one sports bra and not worry about jiggling while working out. So bring it on world!
I love the feeling I get when Alaska excepts that it's spring and decides to go with the flow. It's so beautiful.

Bad Ass

Not going to lie... these woman are serious athletic beasts! If I could do this I totally would, so amazing!

Crossfit Girls...

When I think of hot girls, this is what a think of...

Arizona

Ok, so I'm super burnt. My aunt gave me this spray on sun screen and I thought I had covered myself pretty good... unfortunately I didn't. I now have the worst sun burnt lines EVER! Luckily, I'm going back to cold Alaska and no one will see my lines besides Damon. But still, my stomach is in SO much pain. I'm a big tummy sleeper and I couldn't even do that :(
Anyways, it's been in the 80's every day since I've been here and it's supposed to stay the same until I leave! Today we are going to Sedona for some sight seeing and some shopping! Tomorrow, Damon and I have a pool date. Tuesday is more shopping and the zoo! Wednesday I'm going with my cousin to get my hair done, Thursday I think Damon and I are meeting up with Jeff Miner (a friend) to hit up Phoenix. Then Friday is our last day, and I think my cousins birthday. I love it here, aside from the strange looks from my burn. If I forgot to mention, I fell asleep outside the first day so I have a burn on one side of my face/neck. I'm on the constant lookout for snakes and scorpions, which I don't think I could do everyday! I really like it here, but I don't think I would want to live here. Too many extreme republicans!!! But on the other side, everyone does have their own pool. Here in Anthem they have a community center that has... a workout center, gym, pool, waterpark, tennis courts, volleyball courts, soccer field, lake (for catch and release fishing), and a little kiddie train. It's pretty bad ass here, when they built everything they made it so if you didn't want to you'd never have to leave the "town".

Blargh.

I really have nothing to say.
I'm going to Arizona on the 11th to visit my Auntie and Uncle :)
YAY

College.

Why is it that people don't think much of kids staying in state to go to college? I feel like saying, sorry I don't have parents who can afford to spend 10+ thousand dollars on me to go to a school where I could get a degree in the same thing in AK! So lame. At first, I wasn't using my "potential" because I wasn't going to school. Now I'm planning on going to school and the question is why I'm staying in Alaska.
Unlike some children/yound adults, my mom can't afford to pay for me. At 18 I was paying for all my own shit. So why in the world would I go out of state? It's not like getting a degree in history is very prestigious, I'm not planning on being a lawyer or anything crazy. History is surrounding us and much more interesting to me then let's say biology. Anyways, I'm basically just upset because no matter what I do isn't enough for some people. I'd rather tell them to fuck themselves and mind their own business then try to explain anything to them. I like being debt free thank you very much! I also like living in a state where finding a job is relatively easy. It's going to take my years to finish school considering I'm going to have to work part/full-time in order to go to school. But in the future it'll be worth it.
My motivation for the day, people who piss me off!

Hair.

I'm a big nut about my hair. I'm sure you can tell by my previous hair post that I'm obsessed with it. I'm never truly satisfied, at least not for long. I always need to change it, but that's what cool about hair. You can always change hair color and cut and know that it will grow out if you hate it. The picture you see is what I want done to my hair, highlights. I'm trying to lighten my hair, and since it's 3 colors at the moment I think that if I get highlights it'll even it all out. I want to go to a professional sometime soon and get this done before I go to Arizona. My hair lightens a LOT in the sun so I'm worried that if I go to Phoenix my hair will lighten so much the obvious colors will pop out and everyone, not just those who can see my tricolor hair will notice.
Motivation for today, highlights :)

Rihanna

Lately, as in the last few weeks I've been in a Rihanna funk. Is it weird that in my sexy alter ego (ei. me as a stripper) I would only dance to her songs? She's so powerful and limit pushing, without being out right bizarre like Gaga. I love it! She's so great :)
I think that in a past life I must have been some sort of dancer, I'm always thinking about dance moves. Sometimes I'll reply a song over and over envisioning how I would dance to it. I've caught myself doing it more then a few times. Then after I figure out how I'd dance to it normally I think of how I'd dance to it if I were my alter ego. Yes, I have a stripped alter ego. She's my crazy side. She only comes out when I'm drunk, another reason why I've stopped drinking.
My inspirational motivator today is Rihanna, and my alter ego. It's a tie!

Gracie Diet

This is the Gracie Diet chart. I'm going to try my hardest to follow this chart for a while. It will be hard because I live in Alaska where fresh things are hard to come by. But I'll manage.

Today I'm motivated by diet!

Juice

I get addicted to things VERY easily, which is one reason I've never done drugs. With that sad, I would like to introduce you to my new addiction...


JUICE!
I LOVE JUICE! I stopped drinking soda a few months ago and picked up drinking juice in it's place. I can't get enough of the stuff. The unfortunate thing is that even juice without moderation isn't necessarily good for you. Apple juice, on the norm, is 100% juice... same with orange juice. So, Damon and I only buy those two types of juice. We go through 6 frozen juice containers in about 6 days.

Enough about juice. Today I made BOMB cookies. Applesauce cookies. They were super fluffy, so fluffy in fact that they were dangerous. They made you think that eating 2 of them was the equivalent to 1 normal cookie. Lucky for me, I went skating with some of the guys today and passed all but 6 out. Good job me, there are still those 6 cookies sitting on the counter!
Speaking of guys, I miss hanging out with guys. They are fucking hilarious and don't bitch about people 24/7.
PS. Today is Valentines day. Even though I have a valentine I'd like to point out how stupid this holiday is. I don't need a day to be told that I'm love, I'd like to know every day that I'm loved. Call me selfish but that's the truth. I appreciate flowers on any day, there's no need to feel obligated. Feeling obligated ruins the whole point of a gift!

Rambling.

My mind hasn't been functioning properly lately. I blame this on constantly waking up at 6:30 in the morning. Unless you have a farm, 6:30 is not an appropriate time for anyone to be awake. This said, I think that working this early should be against the law. I mean, for fucks sake! The sun isn't even up, maybe that's my problem? During the summer waking up at 7 sucks but it's already light out and the birds are singing so it's not TOO terrible. Fucking Alaska. I love it here, I really do, but all the darkness gets to me. I keep myself as busy as possible to ignore the fact that I'm constantly slowed down.
On a completely different note I've been thinking a lot about babies. NO! I am not wanting one at this moment. I just think it's funny that girls my age (yes girls, I don't consider us to be women yet) are already having strong maternal instincts. I've actually talked to a lot of my girl friends about this very thing. None of us want kids right now, but every once in a while you think "I really want a baby" then you have to mentally bitch slap yourself because what you just thought was unbelievable. I try to avoid these thoughts by babysitting children, but then of course, I happen to babysit a one year old like Enzo and fall head over heels in love. I know it's because biologically speaking I should be having kids right now, as many as I can. But it really is annoying! I mean come on! I shouldn't be thinking about children right now, I should be thinking about bettering myself, expanding my future through education, blah blah blah. But what am I really thinking about? Babies.
Is it weird that I have a baby back up plan? Like an, oh shit I'm pregnant what the hell am I supposed to do plan? I don't think it's a thing that most girls think about. I do though, I think about it every single month. I even have a savings account dedicated to it. I call it my oh shit account. I put 40-45% of each paycheck in it.
Another thing, is it weird that I budget every one of my paychecks? 40-45% in bills, 40-45% in savings and 10-20% for me to spend on whatever? I mean, I'm almost 20 and I already have a "mint" account. I guess I'm just growing up. It's so bizarre to me, growing up. My friends are getting married, thinking about getting married, having babies and what not. I mean, holy shit! I'm almost 20 fucking years old. The other day that hit me when I was talking to Damon. We were talking about the summer, his birthday is in the summer, and I realized that he's turning 23!! Gah! I know that that's really not all that old, but to me it's mind blowing! I started dating the kid when he was 20, now I'm almost 20.
That's also sort of depressing, what have I done with my life in the last 3 years? Nada. Unless you count getting 3 tats, which no one does (lol)! This summer I want to take one class online, just to see if I really want to go to school. I'm kind of having problems with the whole future thing. I know I really REALLY want to be a stay at home mom while I have younger kids, but then I think I want to be a teacher after that. So my plan is to go to school and become a history major, or maybe major in education that way when my kids are in school I can get a job! Again, I know it's weird to be thinking about all of this when I'm not even 20 yet. But I do think about it, almost every day. I also have a few names (including middle names) I want to name my kids. I want to have kids when I'm 26-28, 2 or 3 kids, 2 or 3 years apart.
Ok, I'm going to stop now. I'm just rambling, and I'm sure no one wants to know about this :P
My motivation for today is sleep.

Superbowl Sunday

No offense, but what a waste of a whole day. I don't understand people... people who haven't been paying attention to football all season are suddenly experts and enjoy watching the game? Such bullshit. There is one plus to this terrible "american holiday", everyone is watching the game. Since everyone is at home, or someone else's home sitting on their butts, the stores are cleared out. My mom and I have made it a tradition to shop on this day for that reason. The usual 20 minute line in the "family friendly" section only takes 10 minutes :)
Also, I've decided to dislike all major sporting events because it clogs up my facebook! Honestly, I don't give a crap if you support a certain team. Most people seem to be fake fans anyways, only truly being interested at the "championship" of whatever sport they are watching.
Oh! I got a haircut today, 2 inches are gone! Slowly I will grow out my ugly dyed hair. Unfortunately, that's my only option, growing it out. I could get highlights, but they would change color because of my tricolored hair. So, sadly, I will have to grow out my hair. For the next year my hair will be ugly and multi colored. Luckily, I live in Talkeetna where lack of style isn't judged upon.
ps. I bought some Luna bars today and can't wait to try them. I'll review once I've tasted one :)

Hair

This is me pissed off. I hate my hair at the moment. It's three different friggen colors!!!!
Ok... I started dying my hair in 9th grade, at first I went lighter, but didn't take good care of it and it looked BAD. Then I started experimenting, that went wrong and in order to fix it I went black. I LOVED the black, so I kept it for about 3 months. I then decided that I must go lighter, I had my first professional color remover done and it turned bright orange, so we dyed it a medium brown and it looked great. I then continued to dye my hair by myself, I went darker, darker, darker and I ended up black again. To get rid of the black the second time I chopped all my hair off, well to my chin (summer of 09). I dyed it a medium brown and hated it because it was so red (my hair pulls red), so what do I do? Dye it darker and darker until eventually it's black again. So about 2 1/2 months ago I researched and decided to do a color remover at home, it worked. I had no more black hair, instead I red tips and blonde roots. I dyed over it, like the instructions say to do, but my hair wouldn't take the dye. Needless to say I was having a panic attack! Then I got a darker dye and dyed it, and it seemed to do the trick, at least temporarily.
So here we are current day... I use lots of products so that I won't damage my hair because I blow dry/ straighten it every time I take a shower (I have naturally wavy hair and don't like it). My hair is soft, shiny, and thick. But the problem is, it's 3 colors now! I have my natural hair color, which I'm trying to get to again... blondish/brown, and red/brown. I don't have the slightest clue what I'm supposed to do. I should just let the dye grow out, but if you know me you know that I can't have "two-toned" hair because it reminds me of a stereotypical 'crack hoe'. Should I get highlights? Will the highlights hide the 3 toned hair, or will they make it more obvious?
As of tomorrow I'm getting my hair trimmed, I'm going to ask the stylist what they think I should do with it. I have talked to a lot of people that tell me to bleach it, but I'm worried this will severely ruin my hair. So as of today, I hate my hair. I'm sure tomorrow I'll love it again.
BAH! End of blog.

Yummo

Yesterday I got my butt whooped by a work out, but it was a good one... 400m as fast as you can, 20 lunges and 20 pushups, repeat 3 times. I did it in 11 minutes 30 seconds! I've never done that work out so I have nothing to compare it with, but I feel like I did a good job :)
Today I went to work at 9, it was really nice to sleep in until 8!! I had broccoli and cheddar soup with feta, sausage, kalamata olive pasta. Then tonight I ordered 2 large "superbowl" pizza's from the squirrel. Sausage, mushrooms, onions, cheddar, pepperjack, and garlic olive oil. So delicious! I decided to treat myself with a whole wheat butterscotch blondie for desert. All in all, not a super healthy meal day, but I figured I'm allowed to eat what I want every once in a while! Tomorrow my mom, Damon and I are going to Wasilla to do some shopping. It's been a tradition to go shopping during superbowl so that the lines are shorter and things are on sale.
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. Today my motivation is food.
ps. we had two moose in our yard today, one of them decided to lick the back of my car :)

Thankful

Who I'm thankful for today...

1. Damon, for always being there for me.

2. Kristjana, for bringing out the girl in me.

3. Cooper, for introducing me to Brenna.

4. Brenna, for showing me a new side to fitness. 

I'm not sure what else to say tonight...

here's a good workout:

8 reps of pushups, 20 seconds on 10 seconds rest

8 reps of sit ups, 20 on 10 rest

8 reps of squats, 20 on 10 rest

run 1 mile, 400m easy, 400m hard, easy, hard

50,40,30,20,10

Unfortunately, being sick for about 5 days ruined my week. Until yesterday, I hadn't worked out since the 24th. I did a simple, not too deathly workout of 50 sit ups, 50 pushups, 50 squats... 40, 30, 20 10. It took me about 8 1/2 minutes. I could only do increments of 25 push ups at a time, so I just decided to do 25 push ups every round instead of the usual. Luckily, the sit ups didn't seem to be a problem, they never are really. That got me thinking. Why is it that I have a little flab now, when I can still do sit ups, crunches, reverse crunches, etc. like I used to? GRR! Oh well, just another thing to concur! 

I'm just ranting now, but it really ticks me off sometimes how our bodies turn on us :P

Anyways, my new goal is to be able to pull off vertical stripes and polka dots again! Hopefully, by this summer I won't feel uncomfortable wearing a tight tank top and shorts. My motivation today is clothing.

Ramble On

It's utterly amazing how time continues to move on forward. It seems like just yesterday I was moving to Talkeetna, afraid to move on and meet new friends. I've realized that I need to do something with my life, something that I love and will always love. History. I LOVE history! From wars, religion, art and philosophy it all amazes me. The greatest thing about history is that each day it's happening.
I want to be a history teacher. Being out of school for a few years has made me realize that people that have truly shaped me into becoming who I am today are mostly teachers. If I could, I would love to teach in Talkeetna. There is a different vibe at the high school here then in most places, it's a big family. I hate saying something so terribly cliche, but it's true. You look out for each other here, if someone is failing you rise up and help them in whatever the case may be.
How perfect would it be to teach at a place where I've been taught and where I was, in a sense, created. To raise a family in a place where freedom is an actuality, not just a right. A place where you treat your next door neighbor as a friend and can ask to borrow a cup of flour without worry.
Growing up here I hated how small it was, I hated the community feel of it all. I felt as if I could never get away. Then moving to Wasilla, I realized how ugly a place could be and my love for my home came rushing back to me. If anything, when I teach I hope to instill a deep and everlasting love for community enrichment. I hope to have at least one student fall in love with a topic that I'm teaching, have someone enjoy learning through discussion, and realize that there is more to school then textbooks and tests.
I love being raised in Talkeetna with such amazing teachers, and with such unique individuals.
Today, teachers of all trades are my motivators.

Sick.

There is nothing a despise more then being sick. Ok, well that's not entirely true... but when it comes to me, there's nothing I hate more. Having the sweats and a fever is an awful way to spend a day. Under the blankets, over the blankets, repeat! I can NOT just sit around all day, so my motivational task of the day was to make "healthy" muffins! I've been drinking tea the past two days like nobody's business... and to me nothing goes better with tea then muffins.

My Recipe:
1 cup of milk
1 cup cooking oats
1 egg
1/4 cup vegetable oil (didn't have applesauce)
1 cup flour
1/4 cup of honey
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp of salt
1/4 cup craisins
1/4 cup mixed berries

The muffins are in the oven right now. So what am I doing? Besides writing this blog that no one is reading? Sipping on some chamomile tea while reading Pride and Prejudice.

What Started It All...

First off, I decided to start this blog to motivate myself. I am not a huge fan of working out, in fact I really dislike it entirely. I love sports, but going to the gym and running in the same spot and lifting weights doesn't excite me. So here's my story...
Last year I moved to a new city with my boyfriend... I hated it there. It was ugly, all grey, no color, everything seemed dead. I was depressed from the moment I walked into our apartment, but I didn't want to say anything because I love him and this is where his job was and where we needed to be. Anyways, I didn't get a job, all I did everyday was sit on my ass and eat while watching television. Needless to say, I gained weight, and gained it fast. I have never been one to just sit around all day, and certainly never had to watch what I ate. I was always active and doing something, but I didn't eat healthily, which lead me to bad habits. I would make pudding and eat the entire bowl, eat all the cookies and drink as much soda as I wanted. I never gained a pound. I was extremely muscular since I was a child and had a fantastic metabolism.
Obviously that didn't last long. In one winter I had gained 10 pounds and lost all my muscle. I always weighed 155 pounds, but it never bothered me since my body fat percentage was 18. Quickly I had lost all my muscle, jumped to 165 pounds and had a fat percentage of 23. That winter was the winter I got stretch marks, because of those little suckers I dove into an even worse depression. I had always been the type of person who would wear tight clothing and short shorts and never had a second thought to how I looked. Now I'm always trying to hide my stomach because I remember how it used to be.
Anyways, about 2 months ago I decided to take control and start working out more frequently. I joined MMA (mixed martial arts) and get my ass kicked 2 times a week. I play volleyball and basketball, and try to do crossfit. But alas, I still have no motivation to run and on occasion do crossfit's "workout of the day".
I decided to start this blog in hopes that it would keep me more into check. I'm sure no one will actually read this, but by doing this I'll at least be able to write down my struggles and hopefully my accomplishments!
SO! As of today, January 25, 2011... I weigh 147 pounds and am 5' 6"