Why is it that people don't think much of kids staying in state to go to college? I feel like saying, sorry I don't have parents who can afford to spend 10+ thousand dollars on me to go to a school where I could get a degree in the same thing in AK! So lame. At first, I wasn't using my "potential" because I wasn't going to school. Now I'm planning on going to school and the question is why I'm staying in Alaska.
Unlike some children/yound adults, my mom can't afford to pay for me. At 18 I was paying for all my own shit. So why in the world would I go out of state? It's not like getting a degree in history is very prestigious, I'm not planning on being a lawyer or anything crazy. History is surrounding us and much more interesting to me then let's say biology. Anyways, I'm basically just upset because no matter what I do isn't enough for some people. I'd rather tell them to fuck themselves and mind their own business then try to explain anything to them. I like being debt free thank you very much! I also like living in a state where finding a job is relatively easy. It's going to take my years to finish school considering I'm going to have to work part/full-time in order to go to school. But in the future it'll be worth it.
My motivation for the day, people who piss me off!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Hair.
Motivation for today, highlights :)
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Rihanna
Lately, as in the last few weeks I've been in a Rihanna funk. Is it weird that in my sexy alter ego (ei. me as a stripper) I would only dance to her songs? She's so powerful and limit pushing, without being out right bizarre like Gaga. I love it! She's so great :)
I think that in a past life I must have been some sort of dancer, I'm always thinking about dance moves. Sometimes I'll reply a song over and over envisioning how I would dance to it. I've caught myself doing it more then a few times. Then after I figure out how I'd dance to it normally I think of how I'd dance to it if I were my alter ego. Yes, I have a stripped alter ego. She's my crazy side. She only comes out when I'm drunk, another reason why I've stopped drinking.
My inspirational motivator today is Rihanna, and my alter ego. It's a tie!
I think that in a past life I must have been some sort of dancer, I'm always thinking about dance moves. Sometimes I'll reply a song over and over envisioning how I would dance to it. I've caught myself doing it more then a few times. Then after I figure out how I'd dance to it normally I think of how I'd dance to it if I were my alter ego. Yes, I have a stripped alter ego. She's my crazy side. She only comes out when I'm drunk, another reason why I've stopped drinking.
My inspirational motivator today is Rihanna, and my alter ego. It's a tie!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Gracie Diet
This is the Gracie Diet chart. I'm going to try my hardest to follow this chart for a while. It will be hard because I live in Alaska where fresh things are hard to come by. But I'll manage.
Today I'm motivated by diet!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Juice
I get addicted to things VERY easily, which is one reason I've never done drugs. With that sad, I would like to introduce you to my new addiction...
JUICE!
I LOVE JUICE! I stopped drinking soda a few months ago and picked up drinking juice in it's place. I can't get enough of the stuff. The unfortunate thing is that even juice without moderation isn't necessarily good for you. Apple juice, on the norm, is 100% juice... same with orange juice. So, Damon and I only buy those two types of juice. We go through 6 frozen juice containers in about 6 days.
Enough about juice. Today I made BOMB cookies. Applesauce cookies. They were super fluffy, so fluffy in fact that they were dangerous. They made you think that eating 2 of them was the equivalent to 1 normal cookie. Lucky for me, I went skating with some of the guys today and passed all but 6 out. Good job me, there are still those 6 cookies sitting on the counter!
Speaking of guys, I miss hanging out with guys. They are fucking hilarious and don't bitch about people 24/7.
PS. Today is Valentines day. Even though I have a valentine I'd like to point out how stupid this holiday is. I don't need a day to be told that I'm love, I'd like to know every day that I'm loved. Call me selfish but that's the truth. I appreciate flowers on any day, there's no need to feel obligated. Feeling obligated ruins the whole point of a gift!
JUICE!
I LOVE JUICE! I stopped drinking soda a few months ago and picked up drinking juice in it's place. I can't get enough of the stuff. The unfortunate thing is that even juice without moderation isn't necessarily good for you. Apple juice, on the norm, is 100% juice... same with orange juice. So, Damon and I only buy those two types of juice. We go through 6 frozen juice containers in about 6 days.
Enough about juice. Today I made BOMB cookies. Applesauce cookies. They were super fluffy, so fluffy in fact that they were dangerous. They made you think that eating 2 of them was the equivalent to 1 normal cookie. Lucky for me, I went skating with some of the guys today and passed all but 6 out. Good job me, there are still those 6 cookies sitting on the counter!
Speaking of guys, I miss hanging out with guys. They are fucking hilarious and don't bitch about people 24/7.
PS. Today is Valentines day. Even though I have a valentine I'd like to point out how stupid this holiday is. I don't need a day to be told that I'm love, I'd like to know every day that I'm loved. Call me selfish but that's the truth. I appreciate flowers on any day, there's no need to feel obligated. Feeling obligated ruins the whole point of a gift!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Rambling.
My mind hasn't been functioning properly lately. I blame this on constantly waking up at 6:30 in the morning. Unless you have a farm, 6:30 is not an appropriate time for anyone to be awake. This said, I think that working this early should be against the law. I mean, for fucks sake! The sun isn't even up, maybe that's my problem? During the summer waking up at 7 sucks but it's already light out and the birds are singing so it's not TOO terrible. Fucking Alaska. I love it here, I really do, but all the darkness gets to me. I keep myself as busy as possible to ignore the fact that I'm constantly slowed down.
On a completely different note I've been thinking a lot about babies. NO! I am not wanting one at this moment. I just think it's funny that girls my age (yes girls, I don't consider us to be women yet) are already having strong maternal instincts. I've actually talked to a lot of my girl friends about this very thing. None of us want kids right now, but every once in a while you think "I really want a baby" then you have to mentally bitch slap yourself because what you just thought was unbelievable. I try to avoid these thoughts by babysitting children, but then of course, I happen to babysit a one year old like Enzo and fall head over heels in love. I know it's because biologically speaking I should be having kids right now, as many as I can. But it really is annoying! I mean come on! I shouldn't be thinking about children right now, I should be thinking about bettering myself, expanding my future through education, blah blah blah. But what am I really thinking about? Babies.
Is it weird that I have a baby back up plan? Like an, oh shit I'm pregnant what the hell am I supposed to do plan? I don't think it's a thing that most girls think about. I do though, I think about it every single month. I even have a savings account dedicated to it. I call it my oh shit account. I put 40-45% of each paycheck in it.
Another thing, is it weird that I budget every one of my paychecks? 40-45% in bills, 40-45% in savings and 10-20% for me to spend on whatever? I mean, I'm almost 20 and I already have a "mint" account. I guess I'm just growing up. It's so bizarre to me, growing up. My friends are getting married, thinking about getting married, having babies and what not. I mean, holy shit! I'm almost 20 fucking years old. The other day that hit me when I was talking to Damon. We were talking about the summer, his birthday is in the summer, and I realized that he's turning 23!! Gah! I know that that's really not all that old, but to me it's mind blowing! I started dating the kid when he was 20, now I'm almost 20.
That's also sort of depressing, what have I done with my life in the last 3 years? Nada. Unless you count getting 3 tats, which no one does (lol)! This summer I want to take one class online, just to see if I really want to go to school. I'm kind of having problems with the whole future thing. I know I really REALLY want to be a stay at home mom while I have younger kids, but then I think I want to be a teacher after that. So my plan is to go to school and become a history major, or maybe major in education that way when my kids are in school I can get a job! Again, I know it's weird to be thinking about all of this when I'm not even 20 yet. But I do think about it, almost every day. I also have a few names (including middle names) I want to name my kids. I want to have kids when I'm 26-28, 2 or 3 kids, 2 or 3 years apart.
Ok, I'm going to stop now. I'm just rambling, and I'm sure no one wants to know about this :P
My motivation for today is sleep.
On a completely different note I've been thinking a lot about babies. NO! I am not wanting one at this moment. I just think it's funny that girls my age (yes girls, I don't consider us to be women yet) are already having strong maternal instincts. I've actually talked to a lot of my girl friends about this very thing. None of us want kids right now, but every once in a while you think "I really want a baby" then you have to mentally bitch slap yourself because what you just thought was unbelievable. I try to avoid these thoughts by babysitting children, but then of course, I happen to babysit a one year old like Enzo and fall head over heels in love. I know it's because biologically speaking I should be having kids right now, as many as I can. But it really is annoying! I mean come on! I shouldn't be thinking about children right now, I should be thinking about bettering myself, expanding my future through education, blah blah blah. But what am I really thinking about? Babies.
Is it weird that I have a baby back up plan? Like an, oh shit I'm pregnant what the hell am I supposed to do plan? I don't think it's a thing that most girls think about. I do though, I think about it every single month. I even have a savings account dedicated to it. I call it my oh shit account. I put 40-45% of each paycheck in it.
Another thing, is it weird that I budget every one of my paychecks? 40-45% in bills, 40-45% in savings and 10-20% for me to spend on whatever? I mean, I'm almost 20 and I already have a "mint" account. I guess I'm just growing up. It's so bizarre to me, growing up. My friends are getting married, thinking about getting married, having babies and what not. I mean, holy shit! I'm almost 20 fucking years old. The other day that hit me when I was talking to Damon. We were talking about the summer, his birthday is in the summer, and I realized that he's turning 23!! Gah! I know that that's really not all that old, but to me it's mind blowing! I started dating the kid when he was 20, now I'm almost 20.
That's also sort of depressing, what have I done with my life in the last 3 years? Nada. Unless you count getting 3 tats, which no one does (lol)! This summer I want to take one class online, just to see if I really want to go to school. I'm kind of having problems with the whole future thing. I know I really REALLY want to be a stay at home mom while I have younger kids, but then I think I want to be a teacher after that. So my plan is to go to school and become a history major, or maybe major in education that way when my kids are in school I can get a job! Again, I know it's weird to be thinking about all of this when I'm not even 20 yet. But I do think about it, almost every day. I also have a few names (including middle names) I want to name my kids. I want to have kids when I'm 26-28, 2 or 3 kids, 2 or 3 years apart.
Ok, I'm going to stop now. I'm just rambling, and I'm sure no one wants to know about this :P
My motivation for today is sleep.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Superbowl Sunday
No offense, but what a waste of a whole day. I don't understand people... people who haven't been paying attention to football all season are suddenly experts and enjoy watching the game? Such bullshit. There is one plus to this terrible "american holiday", everyone is watching the game. Since everyone is at home, or someone else's home sitting on their butts, the stores are cleared out. My mom and I have made it a tradition to shop on this day for that reason. The usual 20 minute line in the "family friendly" section only takes 10 minutes :)
Also, I've decided to dislike all major sporting events because it clogs up my facebook! Honestly, I don't give a crap if you support a certain team. Most people seem to be fake fans anyways, only truly being interested at the "championship" of whatever sport they are watching.
Oh! I got a haircut today, 2 inches are gone! Slowly I will grow out my ugly dyed hair. Unfortunately, that's my only option, growing it out. I could get highlights, but they would change color because of my tricolored hair. So, sadly, I will have to grow out my hair. For the next year my hair will be ugly and multi colored. Luckily, I live in Talkeetna where lack of style isn't judged upon.
ps. I bought some Luna bars today and can't wait to try them. I'll review once I've tasted one :)
Also, I've decided to dislike all major sporting events because it clogs up my facebook! Honestly, I don't give a crap if you support a certain team. Most people seem to be fake fans anyways, only truly being interested at the "championship" of whatever sport they are watching.
Oh! I got a haircut today, 2 inches are gone! Slowly I will grow out my ugly dyed hair. Unfortunately, that's my only option, growing it out. I could get highlights, but they would change color because of my tricolored hair. So, sadly, I will have to grow out my hair. For the next year my hair will be ugly and multi colored. Luckily, I live in Talkeetna where lack of style isn't judged upon.
ps. I bought some Luna bars today and can't wait to try them. I'll review once I've tasted one :)
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Hair
This is me pissed off. I hate my hair at the moment. It's three different friggen colors!!!!
Ok... I started dying my hair in 9th grade, at first I went lighter, but didn't take good care of it and it looked BAD. Then I started experimenting, that went wrong and in order to fix it I went black. I LOVED the black, so I kept it for about 3 months. I then decided that I must go lighter, I had my first professional color remover done and it turned bright orange, so we dyed it a medium brown and it looked great. I then continued to dye my hair by myself, I went darker, darker, darker and I ended up black again. To get rid of the black the second time I chopped all my hair off, well to my chin (summer of 09). I dyed it a medium brown and hated it because it was so red (my hair pulls red), so what do I do? Dye it darker and darker until eventually it's black again. So about 2 1/2 months ago I researched and decided to do a color remover at home, it worked. I had no more black hair, instead I red tips and blonde roots. I dyed over it, like the instructions say to do, but my hair wouldn't take the dye. Needless to say I was having a panic attack! Then I got a darker dye and dyed it, and it seemed to do the trick, at least temporarily.
So here we are current day... I use lots of products so that I won't damage my hair because I blow dry/ straighten it every time I take a shower (I have naturally wavy hair and don't like it). My hair is soft, shiny, and thick. But the problem is, it's 3 colors now! I have my natural hair color, which I'm trying to get to again... blondish/brown, and red/brown. I don't have the slightest clue what I'm supposed to do. I should just let the dye grow out, but if you know me you know that I can't have "two-toned" hair because it reminds me of a stereotypical 'crack hoe'. Should I get highlights? Will the highlights hide the 3 toned hair, or will they make it more obvious?
As of tomorrow I'm getting my hair trimmed, I'm going to ask the stylist what they think I should do with it. I have talked to a lot of people that tell me to bleach it, but I'm worried this will severely ruin my hair. So as of today, I hate my hair. I'm sure tomorrow I'll love it again.
BAH! End of blog.
Ok... I started dying my hair in 9th grade, at first I went lighter, but didn't take good care of it and it looked BAD. Then I started experimenting, that went wrong and in order to fix it I went black. I LOVED the black, so I kept it for about 3 months. I then decided that I must go lighter, I had my first professional color remover done and it turned bright orange, so we dyed it a medium brown and it looked great. I then continued to dye my hair by myself, I went darker, darker, darker and I ended up black again. To get rid of the black the second time I chopped all my hair off, well to my chin (summer of 09). I dyed it a medium brown and hated it because it was so red (my hair pulls red), so what do I do? Dye it darker and darker until eventually it's black again. So about 2 1/2 months ago I researched and decided to do a color remover at home, it worked. I had no more black hair, instead I red tips and blonde roots. I dyed over it, like the instructions say to do, but my hair wouldn't take the dye. Needless to say I was having a panic attack! Then I got a darker dye and dyed it, and it seemed to do the trick, at least temporarily.
So here we are current day... I use lots of products so that I won't damage my hair because I blow dry/ straighten it every time I take a shower (I have naturally wavy hair and don't like it). My hair is soft, shiny, and thick. But the problem is, it's 3 colors now! I have my natural hair color, which I'm trying to get to again... blondish/brown, and red/brown. I don't have the slightest clue what I'm supposed to do. I should just let the dye grow out, but if you know me you know that I can't have "two-toned" hair because it reminds me of a stereotypical 'crack hoe'. Should I get highlights? Will the highlights hide the 3 toned hair, or will they make it more obvious?
As of tomorrow I'm getting my hair trimmed, I'm going to ask the stylist what they think I should do with it. I have talked to a lot of people that tell me to bleach it, but I'm worried this will severely ruin my hair. So as of today, I hate my hair. I'm sure tomorrow I'll love it again.
BAH! End of blog.
Yummo
Yesterday I got my butt whooped by a work out, but it was a good one... 400m as fast as you can, 20 lunges and 20 pushups, repeat 3 times. I did it in 11 minutes 30 seconds! I've never done that work out so I have nothing to compare it with, but I feel like I did a good job :)
Today I went to work at 9, it was really nice to sleep in until 8!! I had broccoli and cheddar soup with feta, sausage, kalamata olive pasta. Then tonight I ordered 2 large "superbowl" pizza's from the squirrel. Sausage, mushrooms, onions, cheddar, pepperjack, and garlic olive oil. So delicious! I decided to treat myself with a whole wheat butterscotch blondie for desert. All in all, not a super healthy meal day, but I figured I'm allowed to eat what I want every once in a while! Tomorrow my mom, Damon and I are going to Wasilla to do some shopping. It's been a tradition to go shopping during superbowl so that the lines are shorter and things are on sale.
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. Today my motivation is food.
ps. we had two moose in our yard today, one of them decided to lick the back of my car :)
Today I went to work at 9, it was really nice to sleep in until 8!! I had broccoli and cheddar soup with feta, sausage, kalamata olive pasta. Then tonight I ordered 2 large "superbowl" pizza's from the squirrel. Sausage, mushrooms, onions, cheddar, pepperjack, and garlic olive oil. So delicious! I decided to treat myself with a whole wheat butterscotch blondie for desert. All in all, not a super healthy meal day, but I figured I'm allowed to eat what I want every once in a while! Tomorrow my mom, Damon and I are going to Wasilla to do some shopping. It's been a tradition to go shopping during superbowl so that the lines are shorter and things are on sale.
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. Today my motivation is food.
ps. we had two moose in our yard today, one of them decided to lick the back of my car :)
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