Christmas Break.

Damn you Christmas!! Before break I had successfully gotten down to 140 pounds and 21% body fat, then break happened and I am now 143 pounds and have a 22.7% body fat. SO, now I am working down again! Luckily for me my abs have BARELY started coming back and I can kind of see them, YAY! The depressing part of living in Alaska is though I'm busting my balls now it's not like anyone can really tell considering today it' -24 degrees, meaning you have to wear so many layers to keep warm it makes you look heavier! Anyways, here are some pictures of me at 143.......

144 part 2.

Ok, so I'm not surprised that I didn't lose weight, but I am that I maintained! With thanksgiving and people constantly over drinking beer and going out to eat I'm shocked I didn't gain like 5 pounds. Good news is that I'm still at 144!
On to other news... this Friday I'm going into town with Bailey to get our hair done :) we are going to miss Branden Elde, who I adore! I'm getting my hair dyed and bangs, and Bailey is getting her hair dyed and cut short. I've also decided to start tanning, I've decided this because my acne is going nuts again and when I'm tan it loves me SO no more pasty sickly Caitlin.
More thoughts... I'm buying a new sewing machine because mine hates me and is evil and I want to sew!!! I've been pinteresting like crazy and am super motivated to sew. I was in the middle of a dress when my shitty old machine died, so I'm hoping to buy it pronto.
Anywhoooooo, I'm totally done xmas shopping and it's not even December! WOOT WOOT

144.

It's been one week and a day since I started working out every day, I have lost one pound. I'm happy, though not 100% sure that that didn't happen naturally considering my body likes to gain and lose weight whenever it wants for no particular reason. Today I am actually counting down the days until I can live in Wasilla again. I don't really like the city but because it's a city it's so nice to have things around. I can't wait for fred meyers to be 20 minutes away, I can't wait for Body Renew to be 20 minutes away, I can't wait to go to class in person (lies, I can totally wait). My only major concern is that Dina, who is now 16, won't handle it well. She will go from a two story, 3 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom tiny apartment. I know that Bulliwyf won't mind where he's living as long as it's with both Damon and I. Blargh.
Other thoughts... I'm not totally convinced school is for me. At least, not yet. I'm been rolling around ideas of working instead of school, or possible saving to go to hair school? GUH! Who knows!!!
Good thoughts! My friend Noelle is getting married December 17th (on my best's friends birthday), and my best friend Kristjana is getting married sometime this coming June! I'm totally wedding obsessed and wanted to plan Noelle's wedding but I think she got overwhelmed and wants a minimalists wedding. Kristjana on the other hand even told me she's glad I'm wedding crazed and wants me to help plan! I think that this Christmas break will be nothing but wedding planning. I've already told her that we have to at least go wedding dress looking while she's in AK.
Speaking of weddings, I totally found the ring I want for both my engagement and wedding band (I don't need two, just one sparkly cool one). It's on sale right now and I was trying to convince Damon that he should totally buy it now in case it goes out of style or something by the time he wants to ask me, hopefully (and I'm counting on) in 3 years. Man, 3 years sounds like a long ass time... We have just been together now for 3 years, I'm not sure I want to wait another 3. Maybe 2 years, and then we can wait a while until we get married. Hmmm, anyways, I want to be married by or at 25 and that's in 4 years so I better not be waiting!

Age: 20

Weight: 144

Height: 5'6"

BMI: 22.0

RING I NEED!!!!!!!! OMG I LOVE IT!!!!!!

145.

Ok, so last Saturday I started really pushing myself to get into better shape. Since last winter I've lost weight, but am now maintaining a weight of 145. What's odd and actually bothersome is that senior year, 3 years ago, I was in MUCH better shape weighing in at 155. I've learned to get over that and I've realized that though I was skinnier and more toned, my diet was absolute SHIT! I mean, I would drink about 4-5 sodas a day and for food I would eat 1 potato and an apple. These days I eat 3 balanced meals a day and only ever drink sodas when I go out to eat, and even then I can't finish them. Basically what I'm saying is that I'm slowly learning to appreciate this adult body of mine. I still have a lot of things I'd like to tone up but over all I'm a happy camper!
Anyways, I've decided to start posting pictures of myself so that I can, and if someone's reading this, you can see my progress and perhaps cheer me on.
OH! GREAT NEWS! My bestest friend in the world just got engaged :) Her wedding will most likely be in June of 2012 and one of her main colors will be purple. I'M STOKED!!!

Age: 20

Height: 5'6"

Weight: 145

BMI: 22.24

Awhadup.

It's been quite some time since I've been on here... About 3 months. The last time I wrote on here all I did was talk about how I was getting a puppy. Well I got him and he's awesome!!! I love him with all my heart :) the other important news is that I'm going to school! I actually really dislike it at the moment but I'm going to give it another semester. I'm only taking 4 classes and I'm getting C's in everything but the one class I enjoy, history! I love my history class and professor and I plan on taking another class taught by him in spring (philosophy 101). I feel totally worthless at the moment and sometimes miss the simplicity of working and coming home to relax. Now I don't work and just feel lazy. I am working out at home, doing MMA on Monday's, volleyball on Tuesday's and Thursday's, and basketball on Wednesday's though so that gets me out of the house now and then. It's really frustrating having Damon at school 3 days a week though, I get in a routine while hes away and then I have to change it again when he comes home. Oh well, Ill survive!
Anyways, that's what I'm doing.

Puppy!

I haven't written anything on this blog for quite a while, which is fine I'm sure... considering I don't think anyone reads it! Anywhoooooo, I've been puppy searching for quite a while now and I've found and fallen in love with one. He is a Vizsla, he will be shipped to Alaska from the lower 48, and will be named Buliwyf (bull-vie). The name might sound a little ridiculous but it's the only name Damon and I could agree on. In all honesty, it's a pretty bad ass name in my opinion. If you have ever read the book Eaters of the Dead or watched the movie The 13th Warrior the name will sound familiar. Our little vizsla is being named after a bad ass from the book.
Damon and I have been researching dogs and haven't been able to agree on one until now. I wanted a lab, he wanted a german wirehaired pointer, I wanted a swiss mountain dog, he wanted a bernese, I wanted a soft-coated wheater terrier, he wanted an airedale terrier... so on and so forth. I had originally loved this dog and wanted one but Damon wasn't convinced. After disagreement upon disagreement I found a video on animal planet about vizsla's, it was only about 4 minutes so Damon agreed to watch it. BAM! He fell in love! It's a mix between labradors, german shorthaired pointers and weimaraners. It's a loveable family dog and a great athlete, exactly what Damon and I had been looking for.
He's already found a soft spot in my heart and I've only ever seen pictures of him. I am beyond excited and ready for this dog to be home in my arms.

Life Plans.

I've recently realized that making plans is silly. Nothing ever turns out how you'd like it to. I'm not saying that this new plan is necessarily a bad one, just that it's thrown me a curve ball. So now, instead of me moving to Wasilla this fall and going to school in person it looks like I'll be staying in Talkeetna playing grown up.
Instead of my mom simply waiting a year to move so that the house sells, she is determined to leave. Because the house needs a lot of work done to it there needs to be someone living there. I'm also my moms power of attorney so I'm supposed to be overseeing their work at the house. Needless to say I'm not too pleased to be living in Talkeetna alone but I think that it might be good for me. I've never been close to being alone in my entire life. Even when my mom would go on vacation I'd have people over every day so that I wasn't alone.
Anyways, my plan for this winter is as follows...
Take 5 classes online, coach xcountry and hopefully volleyball, try and find a job, and keep myself entertained in the mean while. I'll have my cat with me, so that's someone to keep me company. The only problem is that during the winter especially I can go into a downward spiral of depression. I'm considering a dog, no joke. The only thing is that my cat may not like that choice and she'll be 17 this fall and I don't want a dog to give her a little cat heart attack. Damon should be home for at least 3 or 4 nights a week so that'll be nice. Also, Brenna, Cooper, Noelle, and Jenny will be here this winter. I feel like this might be a good thing for me, but honestly I'm just scared shitless. It's going to be a huge adjustment with mom no longer being a drive away, and then with Damon gone half of the week I'm not sure how this will work out.
I'm also worried that Damon and I may grow apart if he's in Wasilla for the fall, then Anchorage in the spring. Blargh, this whole thing is rather frustrating. I'm not very good with extreme change!! I love him with all of my heart and I know he loves me back so maybe this'll be good? I've heard that distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it's already plenty fond right meow.
Hmmmmmm lots to think about.

On a different note I've been running and doing MMA so I've been kicking my butt into shape! Soon I'll get my tires inflated again and do some biking!